Mid-Month Update

I figured updating this more than once of month was beneficial to my progress. I'm very excited to report that I hit my goal of losing 25lbs two weeks ago, and this past Tuesday I accomplished reaching and exceeding my 10% lost goal! I'm down 27.4lbs and I do feel much better about myself. Granted I haven't been perfect on my "no sugar" aka candy, but I have made huge strides in limiting myself or removing myself all together from tempting situations.

I decided to take some pics of myself this past weekend to chronicle my progress. I took all of these pictures, and you can't see my face in any of them!





Onto losing 30lbs!

The New Year

Ice Skating in San Jose 12.31.08

It's 2009 and I'm finally updating my weight loss blog. Things were challenging over the holidays, I won't lie. Instead of my Tuesday night free for all lasting only on Tuesday, it would start bleeding over into Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday! Terrible, I know. With the New Year around the corner, I started dissecting what it was that caused this to happen. Many times on Tuesday nights, I wasn't sure what sweet thing I wanted to indulge on, so I'd buy two or three things. I'd binge on one of them, leaving the others to be available at another time. I know I had the option of hiding them away until next Tuesday but that's just not an option for me. I have no self control when it comes to candy and cookies, absolutely ZERO! I started reviewing what triggered this binge and it usually starts out with a small taste of the substance. Then I want to keep on getting those same sensations in my mouth and I go back for more....and more. To the point where I feel sick.

On New Year's Eve with Sandra, I declared that I'd limit my sweet temptation only to Tuesday night and there could only be one option. The rest of the week I would stay away from cookies and candy so Tuesday would really feel like a treat. I've done really well in keeping this and have felt dramatically better about myself. I don't crave it as much and when Tuesday comes, I really think about what I want for my treat that night instead of grabbing anything and everything! This past week I did slip up a bit by having some crackers Wednesday night, ice cream on Thursday night, and wine & cheese on Friday night! I knew that these choices would have consenquences and I didn't pretend that I had "no other option" than to make those choices. To counteract that, I've been maintaining my tracking and increasing my fitness efforts. On Thursday, I did kickboxing, abs, and 35 minutes of Zumba. I was so exhausted from kickboxing but pushed myself to do Zumba. On Friday, I did 30 minutes of the PreCore then spent the rest of the day with my sister, helping her out around her new place. Saturday I didn't get up in time and Sunday I did Zumba before work. Today I had a short work out - 15 minutes on the PreCore and 15 minutes of weights. I feel pretty good and I still have to go to work as well, so that helps.

I've made the decision that this is the last year I'm going to be overweight. I'm 26 years old and I've been dealing with this since I was 8 - nothing is going to change that except me. I know I can do this - I've done it in the past. However, losing weight isn't the magical cure to my life but I know it will affect the way I feel about myself, in my own skin. I don't want to be told "you have a pretty face" for the rest of my life; I want to know that all of me is pretty! I want to be able to wear certain fashions and rock it with confidence. I want to wear shorts and not worry about my legs jiggling. I can reach all of those goals and I will. I will be the priority of my life and I'm the only one accountable to that :)

December already?!

Here's the monthly pic. Not too much has changed but I feel stronger. I feel my endurance is building up more. My main focus right now is to get back to tracking. Mentally tracking allows there to be error and I feel that is my main hinderance right now other than maintaining control. I did pretty well at Thanksgiving - lost a lb actually! So my goal is to reach my 10% before the new year arrives. I feel that once I get there, I will have more motivation to keep going. Well looking in the mirror is motivation too :) Oh, got a new hair cut!

November is Here!

I forgot to take a picture for October, but this is early November, so yeah whatever :)

Things are going well and I really do enjoy my meetings, despite not always wanting to physically go there. However, the feedback is good and Jennifer always lightens up the mood. I haven't made a whole lot of progress on the scale but I'm feeling more confident in myself. This past weekend I went shopping for new work out gear. It was quite nice to fit into L pants and tops being loose in areas that were previously tight. I feel much better being in new clothes - makes me feel not as self-conscious at the gym, like if my pants are creeping down or if my shirt is exposing any of my stomach. Some old clothes are fitting better also. so that is encouraging!

This time around has been harder for me. I think acknowledging that I have a much longer road ahead of me than before has made me not as motivated for some reason. I've been with WW for almost six months and I'm not even close to the success I had achieved four years ago. Four years ago, by six months I had lost over 30lbs! I need to remain focused and set a smaller goal for the current month instead of looking at the final end goal. My final end goal is to weight 165, the same I was at college graduation time. I looked pretty good back then ;)

Give Me the Greenlight!

Another month has passed and WW is going alright. For two weeks straight, I maintained and it was starting to really annoy me since I was following the program almost to a T and had increased my activity. This last week, I lost 3.4lbs!!! It felt so good to see that I really was doing something to get closer to my goal. While my overall goal of having 30lbs gone by the end of August was not reached, I'm closer to losing 20lbs! This week it's been a bit tough; been really sad about things that are going on with people from college and feeling rejected. On top of it all I'm PMSing and the 4th marked two months since Matt and I broke up. All those events at once have made me a little sad and I've been definitely craving sweets more. I have been paying attention to my satiety feeling and have been listening to it pretty well, with the exception of today. Today I had Mexican food, candy, coffee, just crap. Tomorrow is a new day and I will do this. I am making progress, even though it's taking slower than I thought. I want to improve my confidence and self esteem and I know by losing weight I will. When my health insurance kicks in, I will probably start going to a counselor to deal with my issues.

Progress being made

Here's a pic of me a week ago, down 13lbs. I had lost over 15lbs but I've been stuck for over a month. For almost 5 weeks, I've been going up and down around this mark. Even though I have a lot more to lose, I haven't snapped myself out of the fog that I've made a small accomplishment and I have a much longer journey to make. I have been diligent about going to the gym, yet on the left side of my back has been hurting badly. I stretch every day now because I'm nervous to strain it even more; I've already had a massage and she noted that my left side was much tighter than my right. It could have to do with being on a computer, more than ever! Either way, it's made a hiccup in my arm work out. In turn, I've increased the intensity of my cardio to counteract eating extra points and not being able to do much with my upper body.

This week I have really made strides in tracking. I have tracked everyday, however I still find myself going over my daily allowance. I can't seem to be satisfied. I drink A LOT of Crystal Geyser to avoid eating extra, but it's a failing battle so far. I'm going to stretch and attempt some ab and arm work, just to see how I feel in the morning.