It's 2009 and I'm finally updating my weight loss blog. Things were challenging over the holidays, I won't lie. Instead of my Tuesday night free for all lasting only on Tuesday, it would start bleeding over into Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday! Terrible, I know. With the New Year around the corner, I started dissecting what it was that caused this to happen. Many times on Tuesday nights, I wasn't sure what sweet thing I wanted to indulge on, so I'd buy two or three things. I'd binge on one of them, leaving the others to be available at another time. I know I had the option of hiding them away until next Tuesday but that's just not an option for me. I have no self control when it comes to candy and cookies, absolutely ZERO! I started reviewing what triggered this binge and it usually starts out with a small taste of the substance. Then I want to keep on getting those same sensations in my mouth and I go back for more....and more. To the point where I feel sick.
On New Year's Eve with Sandra, I declared that I'd limit my sweet temptation only to Tuesday night and there could only be one option. The rest of the week I would stay away from cookies and candy so Tuesday would really feel like a treat. I've done really well in keeping this and have felt dramatically better about myself. I don't crave it as much and when Tuesday comes, I really think about what I want for my treat that night instead of grabbing anything and everything! This past week I did slip up a bit by having some crackers Wednesday night, ice cream on Thursday night, and wine & cheese on Friday night! I knew that these choices would have consenquences and I didn't pretend that I had "no other option" than to make those choices. To counteract that, I've been maintaining my tracking and increasing my fitness efforts. On Thursday, I did kickboxing, abs, and 35 minutes of Zumba. I was so exhausted from kickboxing but pushed myself to do Zumba. On Friday, I did 30 minutes of the PreCore then spent the rest of the day with my sister, helping her out around her new place. Saturday I didn't get up in time and Sunday I did Zumba before work. Today I had a short work out - 15 minutes on the PreCore and 15 minutes of weights. I feel pretty good and I still have to go to work as well, so that helps.
I've made the decision that this is the last year I'm going to be overweight. I'm 26 years old and I've been dealing with this since I was 8 - nothing is going to change that except me. I know I can do this - I've done it in the past. However, losing weight isn't the magical cure to my life but I know it will affect the way I feel about myself, in my own skin. I don't want to be told "you have a pretty face" for the rest of my life; I want to know that all of me is pretty! I want to be able to wear certain fashions and rock it with confidence. I want to wear shorts and not worry about my legs jiggling. I can reach all of those goals and I will. I will be the priority of my life and I'm the only one accountable to that :)
